I don’t feel comfy with those “normal human events” that everyone takes part in like the parties they invited me in Berlin, or those club nights, or even much more innocent and usual festivals here. It’s mostly not because of the particular people. I can’t connect. Another version of me can, but I have to pretend hard to put on that act, and it is too exhausting for me. Actually, I feel like a stranger afterwards, and it takes days for me to find myself again. I don’t fit in. Please don’t force it, or something might get broken.